maybe someday

2010-06-02T22:57:00.001+08:00

byebye blogg!!!

suddenly i feel that let me start tumblr . play play awhile then come back okay ? byeE!

oh my tumblur website is

pangminggmingg.tumblr.com

2010-05-29T01:51:00.002+08:00

Last published post is like 8th Apr. !! haha.

its been so long. Lots and lots of things happened in this month ?

i totally am a weakling. . Eugene have to stop being a kid. He has to grow up .

seriously .

a few things i've thought of through this month let me came to this concluion

也许虚伪是为了保护自己所拥有的，是不想失去自己爱的人。。

我已经忘记什么是爱，什么是痛，忘记什么事难过，什么是眼泪，也许读书和忙碌是心最好的麻醉药，让人斩时遗忘痛苦，让我遗忘爱过你。。

当所有的人都离我而去，我看到的不是最珍惜我的人，而是孤独的自己，因为我相信到现在，我还没有遇到用心对待我的那个人，也许这只是错觉，是幻想，但这应该就是孤独的感觉。。

this is sucha chinese post but ya. 华文让我更有感触地把心情表现出来。

铭喜活得很辛苦，他不喜欢勉强微笑，他不喜欢现实的复杂，他要的是家人的关怀，朋友的疼爱，爱人的拥抱，但是他什么都没有，除了读书，忙着做一些让他头痛的东西，他什么都没有所以笑容减少了，所以唱歌也少了，笑话不好笑，脾气坏了，眼泪多了，孤独增加了，心更痛了，不挽留任何人，头也时常隐隐作痛，心也偶尔会抽痛，不想让眼泪流下但在夜里还会不听使唤的狂流，真心不停的被利用，被伤害，何时能让我不再难过，何时会找到真爱，何时能找到知己，真心的朋友？

gosh. this is too much chinese and emo.

other than band and some happy stuff in school, i see it a lil' pointless to live. kinda sian. im not really emo just sick of life,studying and a few other things. . i wonder where is my heart heading to ? i wanna get away from this world. i dont look foward to new day and in fact, i hate waking up to the new day. i wanna sleep for very long. (i always say that) but i never did.

and i love myself alot. more than you can imagine. so im not gonna torture myself. feeling sad is more than enough and my 's' button got problem. ): i want a new laptop !! please.

2010-04-08T23:11:00.001+08:00

Omg!! It's 11 1o and I just boarded the bus that leave yishun! have to report at 6 plus tml! Wow! I might as well stay in school? The whole week, I've been reaching school early and leaving late. Think I'm gonna die soon:( my eyes are closing and I really wish that June holis can come now! Haha tired of everything. .

*tired of faking a smile*

Everyday I wonder.

2010-04-06T06:48:00.001+08:00

Hey people ! I'm blogging on the bus! Time is precious. Lol . Anyway yesterday was Monday and Monday just bores me. Reaching school at 7 am and leaving at 630 pm, it's like longer than normal working hours! Close 12 hours within thy compound is just not easy:( Stay strong Eugene and everyone else, it will be over.
These days I felt more and moredistant from everyone else . It seems that whenever I want to get close to that person or I want to protect the relationship we had, everything just turn bad. That person will leave or we will just part. All good things comes to an end but why does those that happen to me just leave so fast? 友情最美好的是能一起创造回忆，最伤痛的是别离后的心情。 Boone will understand what I'm saying haha

Anyway, had this first aid course for sl yesterday. Learnt basic first aid stuffs. Went home slacked. Chat with JunHan and tution!! Anyway I uploaded pictures for Malaysia trip already there are still
More but can go to my fb photos, under 'a break, for a smile' album and enjoyyyy!! Haha is all me and nothing else:D I'm on my way to a place where I can't see the love . On my way to seek happiness from a place without joy .

3 months

2010-04-04T20:29:00.001+08:00

It's the start of April which means 3 months of 2010 has begun . It's gonna be my 17 years of life and I definetly had grown ! :) haha been through lots and had seen lots . Sometimes I wonder what is this whole LIFE thing all about? I mean we are studying hard for our ambition but what's mine? Idk . Things are piling up together and lots have to be done>< 2 months of jc is shit. Good friends leaving , people dying , closed ones changing ! Oh man ! I'm lost and I really dk what to do in life. Lots of people come and go some I wished they would stay but they just leave us too fast. I'm staring out the window thinking to myself . . I just came back from Malaysia and during the trip I did had fun with my family . I felt that it was a well trip. We got stuck in traffic jams but we just waited. Everything was in a very slow pace and I just didn't think of anything but sleep eat play . The moment I reached custom, shucks . I have to hand in this homework, I have to attend meetings on this this this date and everything indeed start piling up when can I live a life of fun and on my own and not just studies future and for someone else's sake? Life is killing me.
(for the pictures in Malaysia and china just go to fb)

Anyway I just hate leavings and goodbyes. I detest ignores and arogance.

Btw, I'll be blogging more often since I can blog easily with I phoneeee:) hahha

2010-04-02T00:49:00.002+08:00

the last time i blogged was 31/1. thats about 2 months ago. Jc life has started and that it's a tough and difficult route.
however i made good friends. a few of them i would really want to treasure. Those times we spent together is just too beautiful to forget. Those pictures we took were just too memorable to delete. Those time spent crapping together is just too wonderful. I feel lost and sad when you left. I lost the purpose of life when i just couldn't see you again. Things are not going well for me. I look perfectly fine from the outside but inside its hurting. The person i thought who will love me,now has a boyfriend. OMG . the more i think about these stuffs the more sad i am . let me try to keep blogging. (:

so i see you son. Saturday perhaps .!!

2010-01-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

and i thought we could be something . .
and i thought it will be forever . .
and i thought things had changed for the better . .

it stayed the same .

couldnt you see the things i do ?
have you not noticed ?

sometimes i feel like disappearing .

i am sad . . because i always treated you as my good friend but you never once did .
am sad . . because you never once share your troubles
am sad . . because you never allowed me to help

but now ive decided not to think .
i live for myself.

and EUGENE PANG MING XI . . will always remember that he's a prince.
a HAPPY one .
a HANDSOME one .
a SMART one .
and all he needs to do is smile and be cool .
so he dosent have to care what others have to say
dosent have to worry bout anything or anyone
dosent have to be what others ask him to be

COOL-ness .

its just a post bout what crossed my mind the whole day . .

2010-01-18T23:35:00.002+08:00

BOO!!its me. .
who else?

i feel super depressed now. . thats all .

oh ya. . i love you . .

2010-01-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

boo!! i uploaded a picture of me cause im boredd. ! enjoyy!

2010-01-13T03:26:00.002+08:00

hiii . . i'm all alone on the crossroad . .

JOEY and SLUT are at my house !!
*i feel excited and tired.i'm sian after volkaa!*

i love you .

***friendships are indeed fragile ***

2010-01-10T02:08:00.002+08:00

heyy.hii. im totally blogging like after so long. .
im blogging now because im pissed off. im pissed off like ya.tottally. whats with long lasting friendship? whats with BFFs. maybe im just a person who doesn't fit to have good friends? ya.? there are too many people who come and go , in and out of my life and im sick of that . hey like seriously, i thought that friendship is a everlasting thing. take for example, because of this person i gave up something i like and in the end , im like getting no appreciation. everytime something ends,it somehow marks the ending of the friendship i thought i had build upalong the way . its like when the show ends, it just leaves nothing but memories and a few years later,nothing stays.

sick and tired of life like this. just reflect, have you ever participated in a group activity and you guys spend alot alot of time together, after the whole thing ends, the distant between everyone increase. the happiness and laughter decrease. are you the one that feels lost like something and someone is missing , or you move on and go find another commitment, go close to another group and forget all the times you once had,but still live on happily ?

maybe im just sensitive but i guess im someone who is indeed very emotional and i need to feel people aroound to show that i am loved. i guess im just someone who relies too much on the hurtful memories. i just cant move on to another. i just cant love anyone else.i just cant get those times out of the mind ,just cant forget all the happy momentss. happpy moments,laughters and tears,i thought all that ive held down for you will have everlasting friendship in exchange, i guess i was just stupid and naive. haha. just laugh at me cause i made the wrong choice more than once and im stupid enough to keep falling into these traps and stupid memories.

if anybody out there is willing to save my soul, im happy and thankful that youre here with me.

cause when i know youre there, im happy.

with loves . eugene.

2009-09-06T18:41:00.000+08:00

trust me this song is nice.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X7d7Ul6PmI

2009-09-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

i'm blogging belive it or not.!

this is a lengthy post . read and tag if you care (: however i still appreciate you for coming.

its been so long.those long ago post are still under constructions.the JUNE holidays motivational talk workshop is still undone.i'm giving up on that.

Its sucha happening week.
please tell me you love me.
i've been listening to english songs.people are getting complicated.cliques are starting to change.close friends used to be so happy together.everything changes la.the person i trust hurt me again.can this world be like the past?if i were to say i love you will you belive me?anyway alot of things had changed.i made new BFFs.love them lots.studying siao.dance craze.hectic life.new girlfriend.its been so long since im in love.090809 will be the date we are together.it was a very fast thing and everything wasn't prepared.there was no formal propose.no gift.no anything.sorry uhh.perhaps i need time.actually im kind of a fake person now.i wear contacts.i style my hair.i wear nice clothes.its been so long since i wear simple singlets and shorts out.its like my spectacle haven't seen the sun for so long but i have to present myself well,don't i?Os are coming and im totally not prepared.i guess i will fail prelims.happ thing is i A1 for MT.one subject down and 2 bonus points for cca.eating choclate cake now.all alone in my room.i offed the light and i seem to feel like dyying anytime.i sat on the railing of the studio today.EMO-ness rose up in me.i wonder how strong is friendship.they say friendship are more easier to handle then relationship but i guess both dosen't work well for me.when i sit alone i think of you.are youokay?im starting to read.m eng is lousy.and i think i cant blend in anwhere. I GUESS I DUN FIT IN ANYWHERE. im like alone and most of the time i dun find myself imprtant anywhere.i cant do well in studies , i cant dance as well,im not as good looking,i cant handle relationship,i can't fit in in cliques and friendships just dosent seem to last for me,i trust the wrong person,im being ignored by people,im forgotten . haha. emo aren't i? but all the love dosent seem to appear. all i wish is to live in mmy dreams.die now? haha. opss .7th month. haha. like i sAY,smiles are for the world and tears should come in right now.if one day i break down i guess its just because i cant hold on to tears much longer.

I'll stop . thanks for tagging people.2309 is coming -presentssss! haha.jkjk

2009-07-04T00:12:00.002+08:00

hello. i've been walking in rain and walking home a few times this week. the feeling is so bad. lonly shit. haha. but i had fun with talking to the rain. i was almost knocke down. the car horn me very very long i still walk like nobody buisness. WTH. i've been tripping. i'm learning to stand alone but i cant. haha. BUT there are happy things like ICF! i played seesaw with bel and cyan. haha. its someting so simple but brings great joy. singing , playing , falling down, getting hurt. but lots of the others just won't do. they think we are doing stupid things but its okay cause at least i know i got 3 friends and i know a few more out there. thank you. haha. i guess not saying directly is better. iif not its not sincer enough. therefore, i would sincerly thank those who have stood by me. i hate people who do not trust me.! FRIENDS, FAMILY, anyone else. please when i say once, i mean it. btw i dc le. now its time to win the competiton.bla bla bla.

thanks for the tgas i'll reply soon

2009-06-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

hello. i am o depressed now. i got no mood to do anything. and i mean everything. its like late at nigght and i haven't pack my bag. idk what homeworks i have and i seriously just stone there from 5+ till now i decided to blog. ive been plurking and now i just listen to music and sit down. lie on the bed. sit up and stone. there is no aim or goal in my life~ the motivational workshop plus ktv session plus chiong homework post is still under construction. and bytheway, art is sian and boring. okay they are the same meaning. and let me tell you this. i look okay on the outside but i got other thoughts in my mind. i seem to be close to this person but the fact is we're not. cause idk why. and everytime i close my eyes, i used to think of nothing and sleep but recently dreams are becoming nightmares. i dreamed of being eaten, being taken advantage of, being left alone. not that i've never been left alone but that feeling is repeating itself in the brain. it seems that i have to get use to that feling. and idk why whenever i thought i could turn to you forever, it changed. which means you will not be there anymore. if life's like that and that we have to accept people going in and ou tof our lives, i tell you i rather not live.
school is as usual sitting with joeyi = fun? haha. idk mix of all actually.

2009-06-27T23:42:00.001+08:00

HELLO. is not i lazy never update. cause i've been chiong-ing my homework so i'll blog once all homeworks are done. byebye people. i've got lots and lots and lots of things to say. this is such a happening week and im so dissapointed in YOU. what i thought just did not come true ): BYE. i will reply tags soon too.

2009-06-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

BUSY WEEK !!!

okay. i'll blog everything tomorrow. I'm freaking tired cause i need to sleep and let me tell you guys something, BAROQUE music don't make me want to study. it makes me want to sleep! great isn't it. if you don't understand, i'll tell you tmr. its a workshop that i have attended. SO for tomorrow, the post will be on, the whole workshop + KTV which is tomorrow and what happened in this week where people change and i start to feel worried and scared and emo ):

2009-06-22T02:14:00.003+08:00

i'm deprive f sleep. for idk what reason, i coulldn't fell asleep the night before this and i listened to the radio and there is this feeling that something is missing from my heart. its like a lost piece of puzzle, troubling my heart. shit.i fucking hate this kind of feeling. oh no no no.i feel lost. and my body clock really got problem. i think i will die soon. and dalso i learnt new things from the competition. the more you practice, the more you will fail, cause your patner simpl duncare. arghhh. whatever. -.- . and i won't be so enthu to people who dao me anymore. dao for all i care.!

2009-06-20T02:34:00.003+08:00

my arms hurt. i dance halfway will suddenly dk what happen then cannot raise properly. shit. how am i going to dance m life away! like wth. really is got something wrong with the joint ler. i think im going to die soon. btw shuang ren wu is really like superb.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9PdwQr_OD0 .

here's the link. enjoy. is like very very nice. wonderful. jiayou

pan wei bo. and

ya. life's like that. sometimes i really cannot stand you.

i think we're really drifiting..don't you think so?

.. but ya life still goes on.

2009-06-17T22:05:00.002+08:00

DO PLANTS HAVE FEELINGS?

if they really do, we'e been like eating them.

for animals, we have organisations to protect them. what bout plants? and if they have and couldn't show it to human that planting them and after that killing them hurts. i guess it just hurts badly. i know it hurts to not be able to share your feelings. ahh. whatever. i should blog bout happy things, shouldn't i.?

okay life has been okay. ups and downs filled the holiday until now. i need to get homeworks done and all. i hope i can complete them and not be so lazy. haha. had performance and sometimes i don't like it. those high profile life. and then being compared. if i were to become an animal would life be easieR?

i've also been thinking alot. i guess you are really not suitable for me. when i want to ask you out, and then when i want to think of someone to go along with us, i just can't find that someone cause our lifes are too different. just too separated. nothing of me has link to you. other than school mates, we're not from the same cca, you're not my junior in anyway. it should be long ago i let you go. and actually thank you for letting me see how important i am in your life. love is something that takes time to start and lots more to heal.. i think im just on the healing thing. i shall shift my focu away from the both of you to others that i should really be cncentrating on. love will be barnish from my life cause between love and friendship i chose friend and it will never change. its always friends. if you really know what i'm talking about that means you know me well.

i've been playing facebook games so add me there.lovess .<3

TAGGG MORE! thanks spam for all i care . i rather you spam then not tag

2009-06-17T21:54:00.002+08:00

about tags. i actually forgot where i last replied so thank you for taggging. i will reply from now on. haha. great right? and i will cheer up. find my passion in dancing and singing and also study. i will pretend that i've not live-d for the past few weeks and months. haha.and i seriously am looking for a new blogskin. the content willnot change just the layout and things..

just some recent tags..

JIALE. be happy laa. okay ^^ we will yi qi be happy. and live our lives better. talk to me if you need to.

CYANNNN . thanks laa. i totally took like almost the whole night to like find it.. yea..

EUGENIA. haha. thanks. typing your name is like typing mine ^^ haha

BENJI. ya okay. like i said, i spent lotsa time finding okay.

GRETCHEN. i will tell you why i ask the question at the later part.

CHENYIN. thanks. i'm cheering up. on my way. thanks for talking to me ^^

NICC. hi

CHLOE. wooo sister we're going to meet tmr again!!

and thanks for tagging..

2009-06-17T02:45:00.002+08:00

this is not the life i want. it may seems beautiful from the ouutside but it is really not the one that is suitable for me. i feel like running away from home. to a place where i really belong.asshole.ive been making wrong descions everywhere. from small scale thing like game to large scale thing like life. i've been acting stupidly to make sure i look happy and the most imprtant thingis that , i've unknowingly start to not trust my family . sometimes people in the family treat me okay but sometimes they're not. perhaps because there's 3 of us, they tend to compare. iadmit im not as good looking as both my sister and brother , butim indeed smarter. but who realy cares. poeple from the outside world just does not seem to know. in the past i will be happily singing in the car whenever i do sit on a car but now i just close my eyes and listen to music till we reach. in the past i will joke around with friends and try as hard as possible to go out everyday but now i choose to stay at home. and in the past i will try my best to study but now i couldn't care less. my blog is beoming emo.. and i really dun care. talk about relationship. love . its like the thing i would never even think about. who cares i get married anot. haha. friends. you never know who betrays you . and seriously i dun know who are true friends now. this urge to blog is so strong. i just hate to think when im being compared with my siblings. and seriously i do sometimes do that. thinking why do they even get the better life than me .like wtf. i seriously dk where i stand. i think im dying. i get serious headaches and i cant breathe sometimes. my heartaches and i cant fall asleep due to some leg thing that i cant explain.its not painful kind but its torturous . people please be prepared to attend my funeral cause i may just end my life anytime. i will move to a place in taiwan(those not developed) and maybe spend my time there if i managed to grow old enuff to migrate. im really really ... it feels like all the bad things are happening to me at once. really cant take all this. people are all moving and changing. i can't accept this fast change. i wish i could just be like a child and have fun . just play and cry and eat and sleep. i guess i need a consellor. haha.i found out that the haha is the first one i use in the whole long chunk . i used to use it often but i guess ive changed too. to a different myself.

2009-06-13T02:19:00.003+08:00

我是谁？哈哈。im like super depressed now. theres just too much things for me to think of. theres studies problem and everyother thing in life just dun go on as smoothly. maybe i had changed. im so not myself. people say im emo. and some say im cheerful. perhaps i just do emo accidentally. things are really gettingout of control and i do not like the way it is . im too tired. really.. 没有一个属于我的地方。life begins to be meaningless. im doing things for the sake of doing it. im studying for some reasons. im similing for another and im like being controlled by everyone who i care. but do they care. haha. i guess im just not those good friend. indeed im those who are more suitable being alone and not bothering what people say? haha. this is not the life i want but who gets the life they want? i bet people out there are facing troubles but why must my be like theirs. faking a smile has from once in a blue moon to once a day and has like become oppsite. real mile only occurs once in a blue moon. like whatever. lets see who will bother reading this whole chunk of stupid words. if you do pease tag cause i guess people will just browse through!! whatever, whats life to me anyway..

DOES PLANTS HAVE FEELINGS? do ans me if you know . msn will be fine!

2009-06-08T21:46:00.002+08:00

it takes very very very long to know one. i thought the relation btw us would be better or had turn better from today but i guess you just dun know whats in my heart. you made me smile in the morning and cry at night. you just control my heart.maybe this is the time i get started to comein cntact with the reality. i must be immune to saddness.kj,vjhnvbdjhg f,f vkvoilkt t.. nothings flwing throught my mind properl so it became like that.

2009-06-07T22:00:00.001+08:00

hello. im so unhappy with life. thats all. headache + heartache! i just dun feel myself

2009-06-03T20:32:00.002+08:00

RANTIN POST~ ignore.

helllo. i did a good deed. to them perhaps. . but who ever really cares. everytime this happens. i will support. at the back.so do carry on with life. you'll have yours and i'll have mine.i dun fucking care if you trust me or not. perhaps i gave up on life. whatever it is, a long as i have my meals and have a place to stay, i guess i do not need any other thing. not you,her or him. im mr smiley or became a zhai nan. soon i'll graduate and mmove on. we might not contact each other but i still thank you for teaching me a lesson - not to be a best friend of anyone if not this will be what i get and also not to care or do anything for a friend. i'll have to be clearer in m choice of friends and now i know the defination of friends. i guess we're still acquaintance. i still am doing it for a friend lke you.

2009-06-02T23:45:00.001+08:00

ILOVEQUIZ. i'll do them when i have the time and mood. perhaps i will never have the mood again. i detest those times where i have to fake a smile.

2009-06-01T20:31:00.002+08:00

HELLO 50TH POST!!

its the 50th post and its a big day. mt olevel. was okay. i think the mt compo about thewriting a gan dong thing, i think i gan dong myself! however today got the first tution. im stoning alot. and whatever he teaches i all ban dong ban bu dong. i seriously dun understand whats with tution.anyway,people ard me are sad. i dun want them to be sad or anything. im nt positive or anything,i just look at things in a diffrent point of view. haha. i might be a boring person and indeed i am a boring person. i guess this is the ans for woring hard and trying to sustain the friendship.im just too naive,to think that life could be simple.i am a crazy person, that you reply for the sake of replying . i guess just tell me you're busy next time will be fine.

im so hungry. been running. haha. i'll just start to hate life as it goes on. perhaps..when i graguate from school, i will bring away memories. and everythng stays as memories.while running, i saw the beautiful sunset. i ran faster and faster. i did not stop. i went on and stories flashed past..

sounds so compo!maybe someday i will pass by you without noticing you and not be like now.to fake a smile.like teardrops n my guitar. kinda sing out the wa i feell. of course im not gay. just the lyrics ! muahaha.it really makes me cry ^^(i mean touchedd)

thats all . bye^^

2009-05-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

ya. i agree. i may like you and it really hurts when i knew you were together. but now, i feel lost. for idk what reason. i just dun wish that this happened. i know i shouldn't be blogging cause i need to study but now im not thinking of her. im worried for him. just like any other friend. he is one dear friend. i guess things just changes, its to much for me or us to take it. im starting to build a wall around me, perhaps to hide from the real world. i guess thats the way for me to be happy. i hope no one else is doing that. but i want to tell him something. dun be too sad, be as cool as last time. like then like , dun like then dun like. dun be too bothered. i dun really know what happened to them . i guesed they may just be quarreling. i hope nothing happens and things will go back to the same and everyone will be happy again i guess both he and she wun feel good now. i just want them to cheer up. for me at least smile okay. anyone who wants to tell me anything ,feel free to tell me. i ust want everyone to smile and not be emo. i will have to go do mt now. but before i go i still want to say cheer up. BE A SMILEY person!! ^^

2009-05-30T00:13:00.002+08:00

helllo people. its going to be the 50th post soon! haha. okay been watching boys over/before flower for the past few days since te last few days of exams. perhaps its because of that i neglected you. anyway the views aren't many. okay results are okay . but everybody say i deprove. thats why idon't like being top. cause whenyou drop, people tend to say alot. but seriosuly can say all you want cause i dun f***ing care . haha. and at the last few episode of the show, they hav been asking this question.what will you choose between friendship and love. haha. okay seriosuly what will you choose?

i chose friendship. im lame but ya. the mian character chose 2 when he was asked the question. he got both of them. the other only got friendship. okay i understand how he feels like seriously. perhaps we do not have enough greed. this was also quoted from the how but ya i do not have enough greed to actually choose both. jiayou.. life just hasnt been too good ffor the past few days. o levels mother toungue is like just 2 days later and my basics are still not strong.

i think i'll have to work hard + concentrate + dun be distracted. + not daydreaming + studying

ithinki have a crush . just another one. haha. let's hope things will turn out great. benji's survey will be done after o level mt. or perhaps when it the third week of june holidays!!

TAGGGS!

2009-05-25T19:23:00.002+08:00

I TOTALLY HATE BEING IGNORED. that feeling is hurtful and irritating. though, man people are doing it to me. People think i'mcrazy and ignorant, childish and immature but please accept me for who i am. today was real tired. had mt extra lesson and did a test. i ws talking to myself and she said i was disturbing to jionglin. so i asked jionglin ' did i disturb you?' and he say no . i told teacher that and she freakingly asked me to go out and do my test. i got no mood at all . like shit. i finished and i slept. but i was so crazy that i drew and wrote words of how much i love her. okay i admit im crazy. my mood was foul. shit ass. im crazy . m irritated..
I SO FEEL LIKE GOING ON AN OVERSEAS TRIP. ALONE OR WITH ONE OR 2 FRIEND. anyone wants to go with me? i seriously want a company . we'll start planning and saving . but i seriously need one or 2 friend. eugenepang_25@hotmail.com . talk to me! im so so so serious right now. MAKE IT HAPPEN FOR ME ALRIGHT?

thanks people.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIRDAUS.

2009-05-22T01:06:00.003+08:00

helllo. we got back our mid years and i failed englisih. im sad just now and i was shievering while checking the papers for all the subjects.im really dissapointed in mself. like come on. eugenepang ming xi. HE totally sucks. he deprove in almost all the subjects. puhhhlease wake up now before its too late. anyway, i ve been watching boys before/over flower for the past few days so there were no updates. however it was just exams and exams. i guess i'll just have to be happy. haha. im a happy person so do look for me if you are troubled i can tell you jokes that are suppose to make you have a =D face . however, everyone ended up like -.- . haha anyway, i still hope you will talk to me if you need to. my parents are going overseas tmr all the way till tuesday .. how can theybe so bad and leave me behind right? hhaha. i love her. like seriously i never had once let her out of my mind. i know its time to give up.. ive been tellin g myself since that day i heard the news. anyway im still happy. belive me. haha. i just hate it when you mademe laughed and smiled and the next moment you ignore and that makes me sad.. im like what..? LOL. im crapping so ignore. ^^

TAGSS!! loves.

2009-05-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

请告诉她，我不爱她。我好想为你唱一首歌。今天换了一个新的发行，变得好幼稚。看着镜子里的自己，好笑了。再看来看，我哭了。我变得非常情绪化，我语无伦次，胡言乱语。你们向全世界宣布你们的幸福，我真的知道我和她的未来，是没有希望的。但没有人能够夺走我对她的爱。爱真的很奇怪，在第一眼，第一瞬间，我的心早在一年前失去了。我莫名其妙，爱上了一个跟我不同世界的人。也许我真的不够完美，和她心中的一百分差得很远吧？爱情里，努力是没结果，是无法控制的。有人说，我并不比他好，自己也承认，他真的是一个很好的男生，我只是突然很想她，想问她最近好吗？给她情人无法给的东西。只有这样，我才会更快乐吧。。

My speed of doing work is getting slow! i think im too old. im eating slowly and thinking slowly. i cannot finish my papers. BOTH papers actually. and for the past few papers, ive not been doing well nor concentrating..anyway, i love spending time with JOEYI,XIYAN,BEL,BENJAMIN,NICOLSAN,YIKZHEN and RONGGUANG! they'r the best . had fun 'shopping' with them at tmart. after that went with CINDY,CHEWYU and ALICIA. they are also the best! they're friends i simply cant live without. we did lots and lots of lame stuffs at cindy's house. they cheer me up.. i slept then went to cut hair. i swear im ugly now but , irioni-cally, i think im still handsome. haha. i know im crazyy. but we went to eat first. haha. walk cindy home and bus-ed home!

GET well soon rongguang ^^

I LOVE PEOPLE WHO VIEW MY BLOG..! YOU'RE LOVEDD!!

2009-05-12T19:21:00.002+08:00

我会放弃。让你在生活的各个领域里得到你自己最想要的，也同样是我得不到的。其实，这些都已成了定局，我根本没有权力在这里说什么，因为，你本来就已经比我好。我慢慢的事去生活里所有的方向与目标，从我得到消息的那一天，我的世界从此不同。我没有想过会是你，是你，让我觉得生命毫无意义，但却不能怪你，不能让自己的感觉流露出来，装起了武装，然后继续微笑，期盼着某某某来到我面前安慰我，问我‘我好不好’让我继续努力，但也迟迟不来。。心里一直无法平静，心里都是牵挂，都是他和她的画面。我无法专心，无法过自己的生活，无法在跟谁说我是真正的快乐。我已经彻彻底底的放弃自己的人生了

Today had social studies paper. i can't finish and is going to fail. studied with a few classmates at the basketballcourt and went for chem. nothing which i studied came out and was freaking hard. 我真的慢慢在荒废一切。went to kopitiam and ate with yz,rg,benji,joeyi,xy.bel,jm,nicolsan.then after that we all go voiddeck talk and play,then got one anuty come cold us then we continue to play and talk . then went home . watched pokemon and tv. slept. and i got freaking eyebags. im so gonna die. and after that went to sleep.woke up and blog. im gonna study history and revise a little on maths. as much as possible, im just going to do art every 3 am. i hope i can tahan if not i wun be able to domy art! jiayou everyoe.

TAGGGG! ^^ thanks ..

2009-05-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

很想说有你是幸福的，但我却从没拥有过。只是想说，拥有她的人，一定要珍惜。我知道我们不可能，也发现，现在见面只会让我们更尴尬，但莫名其妙的我从没放弃。从一年前到现在，我只学会了一样东西 ‘爱情里，努力是不会有回报的。真的~~
anyway today had early dissimal. 1025. went to eat. then go art room. played with bel xiyan rg yz and nicolsan. had lotsa fun there. then went to assemble at 3e4 classroom. saw the performance. was like any other ones. ^^ had fun. not very was oring too but ya. at least still can. then went to cindy ouse and eat steamboat. waited for another 3 others . ate and slacked around . waited for bus and ya. was having a good time. came home and chatted with SOMEONE, on msn . been chatting with him for a few days. WEBCAM . haha. funn

我发现，我需要的是你的关怀。但你们的出现，往往会让我措手不及，不知所措！

2009-05-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

im NOT happy. very.

SCHOOL. everyday , school is the same!.

我现在发现，成长是痛苦的。不喜欢现在的生活，面带假的微笑，不停的用高笑来掩饰心情。是好是坏的已经在微笑和搞笑中，消失得无影无踪。
很多时候，我发现他真的比我幸福。他有温暖的家，我没有。他有世界上最完整无暇的女朋友，我没有。他有世界上最爱他，最崇拜他，最诚恳的朋友，可能我有。他聪明，至少比我聪明。我已经没有地方或任何人给我诉说了。我只想睡觉，不要起来，就慢慢老去，慢慢死掉。

went home after school and slept. was too too too tired. went to band. eat with my fther and sistr at the japanese restraunt in T1 then walk around. saw jovin. went home. im going to do work! after i bathe .

TAGG~ and i love people who viit m blog!

2009-05-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

当故事结束之后，心也习惯一个人生活。。

有时，我知道我没有比你好。我开始知道为什么自己欧那么多白头发了。我无法忘记。其实很多时候也是因为压力吧。我用尽所有力量来读书，现在只发现，越来越迷失方向。

我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福。真的~
在这个世界里，已经没有什么事情能够让我再一次露出单纯，纯真的微笑。

Thanks for reading my blog. from now on, dun nid care about the CHinese wordinGS. er. ya.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY &&& CLIFTON
yup. present was just ballons. i know its lame but, ya . live with it. nothing interesting happened in school. 也许是当我一个人的时候，好像事情都变得不快乐，不精彩。。IGONREE!. haha.. okay and after that went to eat with RG,NIColsan,YZ. saw JOEYILEEE!! WEILEEEE. liu yue and wendy!!

2009-05-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

笑的在大声，心不是热的，全都是假的，只有眼泪是真的。。
ｉ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｏｕ＇ｒｅ　ｒｅａｄｉｎｇ　ｔｈｉｓ．　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｓａｙ　ｔｈａｔ　ｙａ．　我还没有真正的忘记她。看着镜子里自己的影子，我发现微笑是唯一解决现在这种情形的方法。

ｔａｇ！！

2009-05-05T16:15:00.003+08:00

today school was okay. whenever i fake a smile, nothing seem to happen. perhaps this is reality. 我只是想听到有人问我，我好不好。　只是想听到放下武装吧。

I'll be posting pictures. once i find the camera's cable! REMIND ME.. you'll see me! haha.
TAG me if you're here, inform me if you've seen this blog one way or another. if you want can xiao xiao sheng tell me. haha. i'm lame and tired. i'll blog more later.

NIGHTS (though its only 4.15 !!!)

2009-05-04T21:08:00.002+08:00

i fake-d a smile so they won't see. i guess this will go on. since no one really cares. but ya.
this is not emo. i just want to tell somebody that, not all smiles are true. .. you can always go find people you like and no need consider about me and im okay alone. without you, you or you. but is this true?

2009-05-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

hello. its been so so so long since i posted. okayy. i agree . laziness overcmes me. exams have started and i thinkit wasn't a good start..but i think i will try harder..OMG! im so not in the mood to study. things just get worse and worse. People are starting to face friendship problem. relationship problem and studies, time management and such. i guess o level year is indeed very stessful . too much for us to take it. the laughters seems to dissapear. Awkward silence seems to increase. When i sang in the bathroom today, i looked into the mirror and felt so NOT myself. verything seemed to have change. the feel of my voice dissapear. i think that's the only way i let my feelings out? i stone-ed halfway throught the song. i can't find the right thing to do now.. whenever there's people around, i tend to hide my feelings. i think some other pople are doing that too. we'll smile and pretend nothing has happened. i've always thought i could trust you and you'll always talk to me.cheer me up. mayb i think too much..haha. i guess you have your problems too. but you just wun let me what's wrong and i dun think is good cause ishare with youall minor things and you are not sharing with me the things you find it sad or. . ya. but atleast you can talk to me and tell me something ... not just kkeep quiet like you know. you dun trust me and things. ><>

在世界上，我明白了只要会包装的很勇敢，外面看起来是快乐，无忧无虑的，所有人就会认为里面也是一样的。今天，有人告诉我‘你很快乐的hor?没有烦恼，很好leiis.’我傻眼了。似乎好像没有人看到里面，里面的痛，不愉快，不开心，都在一个微笑被忽略。被搞笑掩饰了。
所以我超喜欢罗志祥的搞笑。

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨
蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好
我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了
还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麽熬
这麽多年早就习惯有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道你好不好
我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
牠习惯睡觉的床尾少了一双脚
所以牠常常看着门口睡不着
我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉我受不了
我在搞笑却在醉後眼泪拼命飙
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳对谁炫耀
还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到你好不好

i've just have to be okay alone..hopeless.dreamless.dissapointless

2009-04-20T19:57:00.002+08:00

hello. im a monster. haha. im just woke up like WTH!! and im gonna study and read! gosh. i look up to amanda cause she reads alot. ahah. got tons of cluster paper for me to do. im gonna change my blog to private the next tiime free. cause im so freaking busy now! haha. what ever. morning today was okay. english did reflection. mdm noreha praised me! woah! first time la. continued reflection and sit beside asri. haha. we like never talk . then Mt it just rread and do poa slack and talk with rg shaun and today , jiaman never ask me to stop doing other things. haha. jiaman alwas ask us to concentrate in MT. haha. socialstudies was fine. did SBQ.miswani was kind of angry with our class. next was PE i simply slack around . do nothing. walk walk. play badminton wth bel and xiyan and natalie awhile. then watch the malay boys play the kick kick thing then go change with rg and go libary read. thenlibrarian scold me for putting legs on the chair. then ignored her. then go back to class want to put my book but the FAT n IRRITATING head refect stop me. i haven't get my tie and evrything but he just don't let.. someother things i wil write only when its private . okay things are not the same. its the change that i have to accept. poa was normal. go tru then went assembly. nasuha no badge so i lent her mine. stand outside write name give the prefect there and nothign else happen. went to class saw what each teacher gave comment on me. then learn about balance person and role model = lurdesamy and yikzhen. haha. then went hme sleep then blog. alot of things to do. so i got to be going.

MAlaysia trip will be posted oce the photos are up. there is like more than a thousand of pictures! haha. and thanks for letting me know that im okay alone. i walked home alone, i recess-ed alone and PE-ed alone. and that's you that let me know that i can actually do that. im more indeendant and iguess its just another passerby who stayed a little longer.

2009-04-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

这一次我决定，真的决定放手。这几个星期，我就会当作我没有活过。看来只有这样，才回过的比较快乐。

i know im lame. haha anywa school has been fine. alot of homeworks coming in. tests and exams are round the corner. but more importantly, i've seen who my friends are. defnetly not the person i always thought is is. haha. i know very 语无伦次。。(no sense) but ya..haha. however even if the time oculd go back, i would still choose to like you. experience ma. haha.lol -.-

and i think my laptop likes SHE alot!. i shuffled my 4/5 00 plus music, containing alot of singers, but surprisingly, i hear SHE's song the most. i think every 3/4 songs got 1 is SHE . so i guess the laptop prefers SHE!haha. very ilogical.

and i realsie something, everytime i smile to people(manners and friendl-iness) they will think i sot sot.. haha. c'mon smile is a act that will actually brightens up the day of people. however, the society has become fast and selfish. like what i learnt in school today, about social graciousness, i belive we singaporeans must do our part and change our thoughts about friendly, smiles. but now, i belive i will not smile to strangers or friends that i don't know? haha. sounds weird but ya. it is really true. so，也许我不会再跟陌生人微笑，不再和朋友或爱的人傻笑，从此也不再疯狂的大笑。这个世界真的变了。街上的人不再有善良的微笑，大家都会带着冷淡，无情的脸上班，上学，人也不会单纯不在大方。 will the new generation and mordern singapore become like that? ahah. okay sounds very weird to say myslef. lols. anyway ya.

lastly i hope that my smile will continuee. 我会尝试继续微笑，直到有一天，我才会彻底的崩溃。
if there will be one point where love is still prsent, i will love agin but i guess not now.

tag!!

with loves,
eugene pang ming xi
(siganture) haha

2009-04-01T22:29:00.002+08:00

hello. i am already going to forget you. slowly bit by bit, i am getting more happy. or am i just puting a smile on my face as a protectitive thing. i can't seem to find the smile where i used to have. its just like a smile dissapoearing into thin air. like i said, i will be as happy as i used to be, i'll try.you'll see.

third day of not talking.

2009-03-31T18:40:00.001+08:00

今天才发现，原来我曾经为一个人，改变了自己，不久，又为另一个人，改变自己，慢慢的我已经忘记了最开始的我，忘了自己喜欢的到底是什么？到底做了这些，值不值得？

2009-03-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

SECOND POST OF THE DAY。我觉得我疯了，我爱上不该爱的人，我相信不该相信的人，我把陌生人当作自己最好的朋友，我觉得这次我真的要学会如何STAND ALONE。也许，我会更幸福，更快乐，如果你看到这个POST，快跟我说话因为我不能没有你，我真的很累，没时间关心这些事。我以前什么都告诉你的，现在我真的要学着自己靠自己。。

2009-03-30T19:12:00.002+08:00

IGNORE THIS POST..im crapping things that dosent concern anything bout myself or school .
err. today i walked home as during pe, i left my wallet card with rong guang. and he left before me. .i didnt realise it too until i was about to bus home. yes, and i survived one day with no communication with you and i totally am dissapointed with myself for not wanting to start a conversation or something. okay i'm totally like not myself anymore. i cant concentrate in class cause i didnt know wether to start a conver anot..i know i shouldnt do that. but ya..i walked home as i said earlier an i thought of everything. i walked expression-less-ly home and you know its all about you.ha. my mind was blanked halfway and there's a few times i totally almost got bang down by the car. haha. iwas like 'how lucky can i be' ya whatever.
see you=D

2009-03-29T00:28:00.002+08:00

你好，哈哈，我今天心又受伤了。友情真的真的很脆弱。我想是我的错吧，我追问太多，我太关心，也许你认为我应该可以接受那种话，那你继续吧。我没有必要听你炫耀，我知道你很多人追，但是身为朋友的你，关心一下我好吗？你从不多问我一句，但我却对你千依百顺，我想我真的疯了。我也决定了，从这个星期开始，一放学就回家，不想在任何地方看到我不想看到的人，我会少跟你说话，我答应没有必要的时候，决定不会出现在你生命里，也许这也是我存在的唯一价值吧，给人利用就是最能贡献的。我真的真的哭了出来。我真的真的受伤了，你永远不会了解我，我还没遇到对的爱情和友情吧。

2009-03-26T22:20:00.003+08:00

okay. lots of thigs happened..i've got nothing i can do.. things are very terrible. i've faked a smile for the whole day. but no matter what happen, BENJAMIN CHUA JUN YI, i want you to know, we will always be friends like forever okay? and rmb what i say..okay. good luck in your everything.i really hope we can stay like what we always have been=D

hhaa. i know i am random but.. ya i treasure all my friends. i mean ALL.BTHL!ICECREAM FAMILY! ANNIE DANCE SPORT! ENTRE GANG. DOGE! ESSS? 4e3/2e5.whatever. as long as you view m blog i'm touched and you're loved.

good luck in evrything.

2009-03-23T18:53:00.003+08:00

大家好，今天满开心的。我有机会顺利的考进理工学院。但却一直在可上，心不在焉。我很累。我怕看到一个我不想见的人。我每次想放弃时，她总会出现在眼前，让我措手不及，又一次遇到爱神的剑。。*我受不了这样的折磨。
*所以现在我不要梦想因为我学会了
*有梦想就一定会有失望

*i never go think so much ler.
*be it hopes or dreams,its all about studies. nothing else.
*cause relationship does not exsit in my dictionary be it love,friends,family and even hope and dreams or anything like longlasting and blissful lovers are just not ffor me.

发现

2009-03-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

大家好。现在我可以用华文沟通了。我好想说我很想要快乐但是我很辛苦。我不是真正的快乐，谁知
道。。我最近，心情超不好。但是我好像喜欢上一个我刚认识的人。哈哈其实我也不知道我自己在想什么。。很乱。我的世界已经被她毁灭了。。我的心真的受伤了。

2009-03-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

i'm really tired..wo bu xiang zai yan xia qu le. wo zhen de bu xiang guo zhe zhong sheng huo le. ru guo ni you shen me yao gen ni de peng you shuo de na ni jiu shuo ba . wo yi jing ma mu le. zhi yao ni bu yao gu yi zai wo de sheng huo li chu xian wo ying gai jiu hui xue zhe man man wang ji ni ba..

ok if people ou can read this then haha.you're good.

2009-03-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

its been so long since i posted. but seriiously i'm beggining to be more hapy as i forget you. okay we will be friends and i think the rest will leave it to whoever who can decide and let nature takes its course. i will be happy and people please cheer up cause there'e nothing to sad about. i may be not be happy but i think time will heal everything. seriously the apperance of yours distrupted my life. give me some time i will forget you . totally. and friends who are sad. be like be .stop wasting itme and stay happy. its like everyone is going through the same thing for all i knw but you know. we'll pull through you see.
=)

2009-02-27T13:54:00.002+08:00

i've done it.i've smiled and joked for a day and i did live a da without even smiling at you.i lived a day without saying hi to you. i lived a day where i bluffed everybody that i dun like her.she is still in my mind. stone now and then to think of crazy things i've done.i heard a story today. this person was like saying, walt disney failed before it became so successful. the person said, if you perservere, you will get the result and adding on, she said altough the first few perserverence might not pay off but as long as you continue, the result you want will be in your hands. therefore i belived. i tried.i tried.but the outcome is stll the same. i've changed for you. and frinds thanks for being wit me. i'll try to move on.

2009-02-26T21:18:00.003+08:00

i've learnt many many things today.its too much to fast.if hte time woulld stop or go back.everthing might not be the same.if i never sepped into 1e2'o8 things may not be the same.whatever. seriously. i've learnt not to take things for granted. i now treasure friends more then love.i know i am wrong. i am. indeed. i feel useless.im sorry .i need you more than anything else. i swear.i know hard work does NOT pay off.i failed my art altough i had sleepless nights for days and weeks for it.sometimes giving up will be a better choice.it goes for both achedemic and relations.things have changed.if you are reading this and you are still angry with me .i apologise. i sincerly apologise.at least repl me?pls.i think one day like that kills me.without your smiles and encouragment i think i can di off at that split second.i never blamed you at all. from the start,i seriously can't move.can't tudy can't do anything. i stared at the food and walked off.i stared at the homework but my hands did not move.i'm like a body without soul.nothing gets into my brain now.i swear.you are the one i turn to everytime but now its diffrennt.you are the one i relied on now its diffrent.i thought friends go tru thick and thin together.i need you this very moment.seriously.
ok i sound so gay but its jsut what i want to say laa.i'm trying to get some slepp so pleas at least let me know you are ot angry or anything with me.
i cried.twice a day.i'm confused.do you reall concern me or..

EMO-less

2009-02-24T19:05:00.003+08:00

yupp. i said i won't be emo. today i seriously passed through a day of emo-less. i tried my best not to emo. i did(i hope i did)and put up a strong face in front of others. seriously i will just be like today.everyday will try as hard as possible to be like today. i hope you will be happy. thats all i want. anyways ya.i'm happy from now on cause i will not like you neither i will put you in my mind ( if i could laa.)i seriously want you to be happy but i think you are now..haha.stay funn=)

bye people

W E E K 9!

2009-02-23T20:52:00.001+08:00

hello,
a few days since i've blogged.Friday went sch and singing. Ct hair after that and its super ugly .i swear!then went home.bla bla bla..saturday went to dance and then perform.sunday stayed at home he whole day.wanted to watch movie but end up no. ate with parent and sister at tmall and bought a new phone.bought a new printer as well=) today went to school, bought drinks and then do excercise. went back to sit then go back to class for english its not as boring.went through oral skills.maths went thru homework and started a little on vectors. then poa teacher never come but got 3 practices which i finished, recess studied at the new 'terrace' which i am going to do it gain tml.as thre will be physcs test. then had phsics which we learnt on electric current. assembly had a crime talkthing and chatted with some of the 3e4s beside . RIse mr luds was angry and we did the physics ws in class and then go tru the exams thing. my exams are gonna end at 11 nov and will be starting ard early june for mt and early aug for the rest. continued studing for chem after ris and had chem test. was okay and i think i will get 20 and above? haha.anyway went art room after that and joeyi,xiyan,bel,jiajie,yikzhen,nicolsan,jiaman and me went eat.then make my phone then went home and do maths hw and studying for phy later.haha..all the best people..

I will not be emo anymore =)

haha.thanks.taggs.

I G N O R E

2009-02-17T21:15:00.002+08:00

today and yesterday was just like anyother day.want to know what happen in school,? i wil blog when i have time you can just go to benjamin's blog if you want!
just want to write out soemthing.thanks for those who think i am still good cause i really am.but those who think i've changed, i'll prove to you i've not.anyway, whenever i walk past her, stand close to her, i feel her presence in the air.but she dosen't seem to notice me.is it me or.. yahh..i'mm just writing crapp.igonre!just to note that i'll never give up until the day i see you going out with some other guys.my heart is with you but now i just do not want to break the relationship btw us.i dun mind staying this way, at least i know i'm at least at a space in your heart.i'll continue to love.

HOMEWORK OFFICIALY SUCKS!
i'm tired of art!seriously i'm to tired to go on.

V A L T N T I N E S / F R I E N D S H I P D A Y

2009-02-15T14:48:00.003+08:00

today is a nice day
i woke up at like 12 wanted to go for dance but my dad did not wait for me so i didnt go. so i joined my friends early.1 when my mum came home she started saying how silly am i to not go for dancing and join my friends but she must understand me. i'mno longer a kid and i know what is more important. also not say i everytime miss lesson.one time also won't die ma.so once she come back and nag, i left . i bought a present for BENJAMIN.sorry for the last minute present. then after that i go up the bus then i called cindy they at one bus stop away so i go down and waited for ALICIA! she is damn slow haha.*alicia pretend you never see this* after that bus to downtown with CINDY ,CHEWYU ,ALICIA and then met BENJAMIN.passed him the present and gave him a hug cause the girls wanted us to!.end up i keep the present for him. went to meet the rest(SHAUN YONGHAO YIKZHEN) then go eat JUsT ACIA(?) then liek took a long time to eat cause they offer free flow of ICE CREAMM! then yikzhen keep eating the once someone go and take, benjamin also take.!they eat super alot.and benjamin can finish 3 scoops of icecream in 3 mouth! is like WTH!! then we went to rent bikes. due to valentine's, there were very little bike so all of us waited awhile and we got our bikes and SHAUN bladed!.after that when we coming back, ME BENJAMIN YONGHAO came back very fast. YIKZHEN CINDY CHEWYU followed .and the girls were lost before they see yikzhenn. then ALICIA went missing. she over shot and yikzhen saw but didnt tell her.lol.then called her and came back after SHAUN. returned the bikes and went to change. walked to pasir ris mrt and i dropped my wallet. but luckily, the girls saw and picked up for me.
in the train i took pictures of the rest. reached plaza sing and met XUNWEI then we knew there was no movies that we can watched as it was fully booked then we went to cathay and could not decide. so we go play arcade. i dunknow why i see all these couples let me emo. after that when we about to go, i found out my wallet lost!! then was like ok at least my ezlink card is wth me. so i'll just have to wait for moday to go to the bank and make a new one. went outside plaza sing and started taking pictures and group photos. its all very nice and i love all of them. thanks for being with me. trained home and i think i became crazy. then wanted to go cindy's house but end up never go. so me chewyu cindy go walk at pasar malam. then i waited for chewyu bus to come while i sit at the busstop for awhile more for i dun know why then walk home, buy ramly burger and came home chatted and i got stuck in my room.my family tried to unlock for me and the whole door spoiled and at last i'm out! sleep.

today i woke up.listened to music,finished all the hw that must tml pass up and then later got event .it is boring. i think i will have to do art laterr..

tata ..tags please=)

P A S S E R B Y

2009-02-13T20:29:00.002+08:00

i suddenly feel so unhappy.we're really drifting apart.i think i've really passed your life.i think i'm meant to be a passerby from the start is just that i've stayed f=longer for awhile everytime. i think i'll just move and not stop by anyone's life anymore..

F R I D A Y 13!

2009-02-13T18:33:00.003+08:00

its just like any other day today mt did test.was difficult and i prank-ed the teacher.then before chem, ICE CREAM family exchanged gifts.benjamin gave me a flower,a bear and a box of chocolates.thanks.i bet its damn expensive. BENJAMIN I WILL GIVE YOU YOUR PRESENT TML! JOEYI LEE HOPE YOU LIKE YOUR PRESENT. socialstudies did another SEQ test and then continue chapter on venice.VENICE is a interesting place i will go if i have the chance. LEft early andwent canteen to sell ballon and chocolates! PROFITED. then after that packed up which takes 1 period and go for poa.did nothing but teach again.seriously MR TEO is wastiing my time! after school bus-ed home and go for singing lesson.Learnt new song.then after that come home thats it..
HAPPY ADVANCE VALENTINE'S/FRIENDHIP DAY!!
thanks for the presents and hope you guys like the presents.lovesss.

C H A N G E D

2009-02-10T21:30:00.002+08:00

seriously i think i have changed.its not for the better, its the worst.i just dun know what happened.my words becomes mean, i gets angry easily and dun think about other people's feeling now. i think i'll just shut up alright. anyway school was just school today. i have hw and more things to do so i'll see whenn i'll blog long long again.anyway there's cca tml.PEOPLE PLEASE TAKE NOTE!!lovess

I"M T R Y I N G H A R D.

2009-02-09T22:49:00.001+08:00

its damn tiring. life is short and we should laugh.but i just can't there is too many things to stress about and too many things to do. i want to tell her i love her but i dun want to change the relationship btw us now.its just dun seems like it is the same.seriously i just want to hang out with my friends.till late night.or spend time alone.maybe think about it..people we shall all be happy together ok?thanks friends although i dun know how long it will asts but however this time i will really treasure you guys and cherish it all.seriously.i love her.help me tell her..

2 1

2009-02-08T13:16:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY
school.which i basically talk crap through out . scold people gl here and there cause sch is simply bored!. had tempreature taking which was PURELY wasting TIME!! then mt do compo. chem go phy lab do practical cause we need to use the data logger. then ss was so cool.i critise(?) peixuan like shit. but was just joking so don't take it too hard and miss wani almost say the F word. recess go with ice cream family agiain while benjamin is doing his duty. 2 periods of poa. do the bad debts thing and went to meet mdm ong after sch to discuss bout cca thing. went singing class after that. went home rested and go lionel's kor(my cousin) 21 st birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Had fun played alot of games and went home at 3 plus . slept and here comes saturday.

SATURDAY
went dance and came home. went for a performance at potong pasir cc and then go to chole's house and waite for my dad to came pick us up. after that went to lionel kor's chalet again and played and watched tv. see kelvin kor's picture from vietnam,taiwan and hawaii. serously i want to go taiwan. went to sleep and then its sunday
SUNDAY
i'll blog later if i have the timee(its half the sunday only.)talking to benjamin online now.haha

MOOD
there's like so many people at the chalett when i went there on saturday. its like he's so close to his girlfriend and there's alot couple there. i seriously do not wish to see couples being very close to each other and like when the're in front of me. its not that i will be angry but i will just have this very weird sense of feeling. i seriousl do not know what happens to me and what has made me the way i am. not that i'm emo i just think that why can't relationship lasts? friends love family relartives they all look fragile a touch and it will break.i tried to be strong but .. i just wish to go to a place where there's only me and me.and its like annie dancesport is not the same anymore.the excitment and things have slowl dissapeared.

E N E R G E T I C

2009-02-05T21:14:00.002+08:00

tosay was interesting and filled with energetic. i should not blog much i just had fun with ice cream family and ya everything went well just that im too tired to blog. everything was okay. i love everyone and contacts is coming tomoorow! see ya!

TAGG thanks

L Y I N G

2009-02-04T21:09:00.002+08:00

hello, for today there's nothing much that had happened in school. will not update in detail. art is drawing, mt is workbook, chem is go tru the quiz which i got 9.5 out of 18, pe did shuttle run and sit and reach. passed both. recess was rather boring. eng is worse and maths did test. after that ate with ICE CREAM famly and then went for cca. collected forms and had the ballon sculpturing course. was okay at the starting and i got 2 prizes. then do a bee and then a heart and candy and then a puffer fish. tilll the back i became restless. hanged in there. walked with jiaman to esso and bus-ed home.slept and wake up.blogging.doing hw later.i really need to sleep more!!anyway JOEYI LEE asked me to blog about her so here you go!she's my patner and keeps stealing my pens.

i'm lying through m teeth when i say i'm okay.do you know that? i laugh and joke is to make sure no one sees my sadness.did you know? i'm not someone when you need to talk or vent your anger on me then you come looking for me. i'm not going to do this thing anymore.
and why are you not replying to my mesages? hey c'mon we're best friends for life a moment ago and now why do you have to do this. hey just reply me alrights

R E S T L E S S

2009-02-03T19:55:00.003+08:00

today was like any other day.

maths
went through the tougher part of standard deviation.
did a few excercises.
everything went okay and did pay alot of attention in it.

MT
slacked !! but i still got listen abit and is doing a reflection on the chapter one. which isn't difficult.so was okay.it was GROUP WORK! i did it with benjamin, jiaman, shaun and jionglin. and had ice cream family picked each other to buy a present to that person on 13 feb. it was a secret so i'm not telling who i will buy for. but i promise i will get all of you at least a card no matter ICE CREAM FAMILY or BTHL.

history
did SEQ. haven't finish. but was nice spendng time with jiaman, yikzhen and yuyang.

RECESS
helped the chewyu in maths. went down and wanted to eat 'mee rubus' but i didn't know what is it caled in the first place so i was like 'that one, that one' then laugh laugh laugh.haha.anyway ya. ate with chewyu and alicia.

physics
learnt about electricity, current and ammeter. alot content and confusion.
when ms sakinah saw that everyone was tired, we were asked to stand and jog on the spot. she said' the one who jog the best will get a chocolate from her.' nobody moved just stood there. then she continued 'whoever who dosen't jog will have to stand for the rest of the lesson' everyone jogged. in the end, asri and farhan each got one chocolate from her.and throughout the lesson she was saying mubarak not being a good NCC and benjamin not being a good COMM MEMBER. i think she got something against their high rank? haha.

english
is the most boring subject ever. failed the dignostic test. i got like 7-10 / 30!! its like i've been constantly doing my work and revision and nothing seems to pay. i guess i've been studying in a wrong way? i don't know.no mood.

after that was NYBC meeting. had a very very super duper long time deciding on what products to sell. now i don't know the product too.!
went to eat with yikzhen and jiaman and bus-ed home.
sleeep and do hw. now blogging later revising! i think i'll die soon

*i've been super restless in my studies. i've commitment but i just cant seem to pay as much attention as i used to before. it's like my sadness have overcomed me and making me think of all other things except studies when i'm in class and i really do need to go back to what am i before. cheerful and always ready to learn. mood really do affect studies. i think i'll just have to move on. and people, i've really super huge mood swings so bear with me my friends and i seriously throw tamper easily like some small kid or aunties who are having PMS. i think i need a consellor. !

take care people bye. i seriously love you guys to the core!

S A D N E S S

2009-02-02T22:51:00.002+08:00

i haven't been happy since chinese new year. either than collecting ang paws this and that, nothing has been happy. i swear. after i blogged that day, sunday, which is yesterday had a performance which i had to dance and sing like at 296 but the stupid person said 269 . -.- then we rush here rush there. seriously, performance getting worse and worse not the item itself but the mood and everything dosen't seems to be there.after that went home and rest. went to chloe's house and go to the chef association performance. it was okay but i serioously think that we're drifting apart. if you have the same feeling as me, yes! indeed we are not as close as before for i don't know what reason . you want come and tell me? -.-
went home, chiong hw and slept.
today normal monday. after school got chem practical. failed the test and im super super depressed laa. after working so hard for it, i don't see the results. its like my efforts goes down the drains. i just don't feel like paying attention anymore. wasting so musch of my brains cells and ending up getting such a lousy marks. then was like damn emo. but thanks to all who had comforted me. 4e3 esp. ICECREAM FAMILY and mubarak. physics was okay. i love mr tann laa.he evertime will singpraises to work well done which means how much effort means how much reward. so physics is much better than chemm!after that was art. had a long long time deciding wether to go anot but in the end yes i did and i even almost completed my one of the sketch. of course with the help of gabriel, jiaman, rg, all the rest of the dnt students. i seriously credits is to all my friends cause their support is the best encouragement. we may not be that close but seriously thanks. went to mac aand eat with the dnt students. chatted and slacked went home had a argument with my sister. cause of maths tb. i don't know wether is it my fault anot but ya, maths is just very important to me and upholding my image is still important. and doing hw consistenly is one of the new year resolution. ok i'll stop now! time for hw and i swear and promise i'll change blogskin once im done with my maths and eng. i'll leave those thats not pass up tml to do it only tml cause i don't have the mood to do it now. i want sleep!!

good night people all the best.

3 months...

2009-01-30T22:22:00.003+08:00

HELLO everyone,
its been 3 months since i've blogged.
this 3 months has been tiring, intersting, new experience and i found out love, friendship, relationship with everyone seems to be like fragile and it looks like i don't look imprtant or is not as significant as what i seemed to be when i'm with you. i just don't know what happened.
okay NOVEMBER, i went thailand. shopped alot,with my family. ate like duno what shit!
after that i forgot what i did. until i went genting. met up with huiying and family. bus-ed in this very very very luxiourous bus and had fun. seriously. i had fun. during this 3 days trip being ther was only 2 guys of teen'age' , we became close. whatever.at least during the trip we were good friends.at least during the trip. now, i jut talked to him. seriously i swear everything lke changed once we came back to singapore. it seems like everything changed. However, during the holidays we practiced with the dance mates in ANNIE DANCESPORT. they are so loved. esp. CHLOE AND SIS.! coolest buddy=D anyway, school started on jan the 2ND. school was boring as usual.
friends like jiaman benjamin cindy chewyu alicia peining tengsian 4e3'o9 and 2e5'07 are so so loved.evryone is loved! haha.evrything was as usual.
FORM TEACHER - mr JIM teo
FORM TUTOR - mr LUTsami?
it was like any other day.countdown at 31 was'nt as nice but went to joey's house and stay at 31 dec 2008 and had a dispute on that very day. not with joey but some other guy. till now, it has already going to be one month and i seriously don't know what will happen after this. quarrel? fight? it's just a joke or was simply a comment and a reflection on the performance but seriously do you have to make a big fuss over it. c'mon man, get a live. things are'nt going on well here and seriously i have to change. i can't change you, i change myself. like what they say , if you cannot change the world change yourself. so i'm gonna do that but not for YOU definetly. i'll just have to reflect on what i've done. anyways, thanks for standing by me CHLOE JONG!! you've always supported me. That was really important.
Chinese new year.this year is extremly boring. the places we visit the things we do . everything have changed . maybe its because i've grown up and have learn to look things at diffrent ways and maybe that's why it looks like its diffrent when its not. i just feel that isn't it better if we never need to grow up. and will never realised that the realitly of the world?
Things is so diffrent now. let's face it. ART is a bore!! i'm still hanging on so that at least it won't reflect that i've dropped certain subjects. I'll hang in there. ART students all the best and jiayou.
anyways, im going off.and i simply love all my friends, dance mates and dance, singing, and al of you who are reading=D

new year resolution.
meet up with 'long time no see' friend.
meet up with online friend
study well for o levels
treat m friends better(?)
lesser quarrels and disputes.
better health
more money!

thats all folks.

F R I , S A T & S U N

2008-11-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

hello=D
FRIday!
was a normal day.went to school.and ate with peining,tengsian,wen wen regine,qiaolin,angela ong,qx,joseph,jiajie and some other.i was simple just go because peining ask me go lor.cause me and them is seriosly,totally like no link like that.then after that went to buy the cca things with pn ts wen and mdm ong. after that cause is the fifth week so no singing.then untill about 4?went to 2o1 and continued to hunt for the items.bought some things and went to try.went home and went to meet my aunt at her office.with my bro and sis.ate swensens and came ack to tmall.went century square watch THE COFFIN.the show was okay.went home sleep
SATurday!!
went to dance and trained down to novena with sis and had singing lessons!hp just nice ring and was playing derrick hoh's song and then my singing teacher-tiffany from AOM.damn cool cans.qin bi qian ming!woots!i will like start training luuh!haha.then went to yue'er anuty house and got bbq!awhile later went dancing again!went home,rest and sleep!
SUNday!!!
woke up and ate breakfast.prepared and go fetch huiying and huijia.put da down at ahma house an then went to fetch xinyi jie.went to kallang leisure park and went ice skate.awhile the cousins jooined.had lotsa fun but was extremely tired.KFC-ed after that and arcaded.went ah ma house eat and came home.now preparing to do donno wat!haha

lotsa pictures to be posted but wait till i'm free anyways cousins,huiying and xinyi jie also hvnt give me the pics so ..
bye for now=DD

L E A P and C C A

2008-10-30T22:41:00.005+08:00

hii!!

you must have noticed why blog becoming so colouress.its because life is meaningless.lol.anyway let's start from TUESDAY!

Went to meet peining at around 1210? walked to 2o1 to meet her friend and wait for tengsian.walked to tmart and met wen wen and then sit mdm ong car go bugis.went to eat then go art friend buy things..untill 4 plus plus then came to my house and started trying the things out and after that mdm ong need to go and we packed up and went to look for markers and books showing us how to make felts. counld'nt find any suitable in tmall so went libary.foound some good books and borrowed it.went home and sleep after that.

WENDESDAY!

wendesday went for LEAP proggrame.nothing much.social studies go com lab.go tru papers+chapter 5-bonding singapore.after that was physics.go tru from chapter 2-kinemetics all the way to chapter 8 on energy.and the last period was maths!went tru bearings and 3-d figures. went to eat with nicolsan, jiaman, gabriel,rongguang,yuyang,fabian and yikzhen.ard 1 went back to school.CCA.went to check up at ard 245.reached kk for heart chck up at 330 which is excacly the appoiment time.ended around 4? everything was excellent and could be sent to adult hopital maybe next year. went home and slept at 530/6? woke up at 11 and watched tv and did homework!was soon morning and washed up.

THURSDAY!

LEAP programme again.this time was maths first and went tru graphs and was okay.next was physics.continued withchaptr 8/9? then the rest of th topics were lft for hoilday homework and is like damn super duper alot.went to com lab for social studies again.finished up chapter 5 and did some work.needed to write praragraphs.was fine.went to tmall and buy sunglasses which is like super nice!pictures!

u after tht went to take art works by sec 4 at queenstown with syazana,nicolsan,xiyan,joeyi,yikzhen and ms shaha.was quite fun on the way.went back to schol and after that went kopitiam and sit nd eat.wlk to busstop with nicolsAn and yik zhEn.acted as a blind person and bla bla bla.very fun luh!then bused home.then dad fetched us to band.played and went for dinner and went ome!found out that i actually spent the month's pocket money away!shit!!gonna stay home the whole november from 1 nov to 15 nov will be stay home study period so dun tempt me me anything like going out!haa.must learn how to control money ler!anyways gonna do work now!

byebye..btw, i really miss you and the days without you by my side is really,really killing me!

U P D A T E !

2008-10-27T21:00:00.002+08:00

hellllooo.

FRIDAY! and SATURDAY!!
friday was the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!
went for CLASS CHALET.before that was suppose to watch movie and met at 1.end up everybody seperated so me,benji,shaun and rongguang went to eat tgether and walked around tmall.then went to e-hub and waited.after the rest had came, we went to the chalet.slacked and watch movies while the malay boys are doing the waterbomb!halfway mdmteo had to leave as she had something to attend to!we stayed there and the person didnt allowed us to play water so we threw away into the grass but some of us like mubarak,hamizan,benji,huiying,claudia and gabriel still played while 'watering the plants'.after that watch movie and talk.BBQ-ed and then went cycling with all the chinese except weizheng nicolsan natalie and kenneth.i think .after that went back bathe and rest.then went watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 with tyngyuan,cladia,huiying,amanda,amanda's brother and her 2 cousin.was mid night after the movie end.went back chalet and talk!after that watch dvd the mexas saw ? then went mac with jiaman,jiajie,claudia,tngyuan,amanda,nicolsan,rongguang,yikzhen and gabriel.more? anyway went back.entertained some people to keep them awake.after awhille i fell asleep too.woke up.bus-ed home.slept awhile.went to fetch sister.dance.home.sleep.dance.home .sleep.

SUNDAY!
woke up.prepared for compeition!.went to suntec and competition.
after that went to NYBC for food.thank you SONG WEI for treating us boys(me,joey,zhijie,zhipin and bro).went back there and sit around with annie dancespot people =) rested.and waited for prize presentation.got 1 st for cha cha 3rd for rumba and jive. and to all dance people!don't be too sad.lets work harder next time for the malaysia and november's competiton alrights!we can do it der luh!haha.okok.cheer up people.after tht watched the pro-s in latin!
they are SUPERB!

MONDAY!
woke up super late luh.woke up and relatives come one after another.celebrated grandfather's birthday.and can see he super happy lor.haha.after that now blogging.

ok..i won't blog often due to busy-ness.
let's see.competiton-school-cca-overseas-

byebye
i'm starting to miss you

I T ' S L I K E T H E E N D B U T I J U S T T H E S T A R T

2008-10-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

helloo..
let's start from wed!
normal.SCHOOL!!!2 SOCIAL STUDIES.watched SIMPSONS A G A I N!
2 ENGLISH.watched DON"T FORGET THE TITANS.this show is a meaningful show.about discrimination.and it really makes me reflect.have i been treating others like that.did i open my heart to people who came and look for me.anyways next was 2 CHEMISTRY.and the show never end in time.so took the 2 chem and contiuned watching the show.the show ended earlier so just took back chem papers and went for a lil' early recess.RECESS was as usual.just that cindy never come and benji joined us.alicia acted super diffrent and the whole atmosphere was diffrent.then was 1 POA.mrs lee came in.talked to us..!she is so diffrent when she's in and out of class.aft school, had long time discussing where to go.wanted to eat at tmart but raining.then discuss discuss discuss end up eat at canteen.and went for cca!cca started as usual.sec2 gotscolding this time.and mdm ong had something to attend to thats why the seniors got to took over..was TOTALLY PISSED OFF by them.almost scolded them.then mdm ong cam in.then obviously cannot ler mah.so mdm ong ask me tell her what happened.and i thiink juniors got scolded.arhh shit they gonna hate me!anyways went to 2o1 to look for shoes and then art friend for designing things and then saw jia qi lao shi and then trained home with pening,tngsian,wen wen who are the people that go.then went ome and slept so i blogged tody instead of ytd..

thursday!
today LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!breakfast with teacher.planned for chalet.clean up classroom.listen songs tgt.its just sacking ard.take back report book!2 in class 15 in level!haha.quie happy tou.then mdm teo did her presentation to us.walked to bus stop with jiaman and nicolsan.then bused home.watch tv.band.dinner.home.bloggin=D
ok chatting on msn now.watching tv.bye

just to note!nopost on fri

A B E T T E R D A Y

2008-10-21T22:45:00.003+08:00

hellllo=D
i FINALLY downloaded MAPLE ><>< color="#66ff99" size="4">SCHOOL.school was okay.first 2 periods was POA.went tru paper =) next was social studies.thought miss wani will go tru the papers and had to do tons of correction.but she let us watched SIMSONS.was SUPERBLY F U N N Y..then was 2 periods of aRt.mr mazli never come again so we went to dnt room.sat at the back while the others need to go tru papers.MUAHAHAHAHAHA.POOR huiying.got scolded unreasonably the MR DOMINIC CHIA!almost got pink form luh!but endup ok.next was englishh!english was the same.DICUSSED EVRYTHING BUT ENGLISH!!recess was the same just that was late and need to stand at parade square.cause the whistle never blow thats why will late luhh!but nvm..NOTHING HAPPEN ANYWAY =D next was MT.slacked throughout ccause she was busy collecting things an giving things out.walked to busstop with gabriel and jiaman.bused home with gab.
slept and went dancing.prepared for competition and teacher annie(my dance teacher)was like SUPER STRICT.and was worn out after that.after that came home ate and went singing class.sang luo zhi xiang - chance chance(qiang si qiang si) and then home.watched tv and bloggin.sleeping soon.haha..CCA tomorrow!!
chatting with yikzhen..i think he forgives me already..let's look foward to happier days ahead and look foward to seeing a new me.the happier side of me.i'm always happy aren't i? haha okay bye for now..links will be done up soon.i promise.becuase i need prepare for tomorrow cca now and tomorrow after cca surely very tired and thursa got band and need go make pants and frida ygo chalet yea..schedule!haha..
bye!

P A S S I N G B Y

2008-10-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

hello=D
todAy was like any other day.woke up a little late and rushed to school.reached school still early.=D.after that was maths.2 periods.wet through papers.was okay.then was history.N levels practice paper.was boring as usual.and was 3 periods of art.Mr mazli never come so...slacked throughout.next was recess.was just a per normal.and then was one period of englishh.talked and discussed about everything but english.went home.slept and went swimming.
SWIMMING was not that fun today as the pool was dirty!FILLED WITH INSECTS.(those when rain then alot of these flies will come).then went KTV.its not those rooms.is more of like one place then everybody tke number go sing.haha.was super high there.ate a lil' fries and went home.people who went there are all th aunties like yue'r,mingzhu,meiman aunty.my mum.huiying huijia huiwen siying sister and me=D i think got more just that i didnt notice.-.-.
went home and watched the recorded detective show.ahh!its super interesting=D
okok..to prevent from waking up late tomorrow i shall go sleep now.bye=D

M Y S U N D A Y.

2008-10-20T00:36:00.000+08:00

due to yesterday making of blog i woke up at 3!
watched SCHOOL HOUSE ROCKS at the new channel OKTO
the show was nice.at least not bad.and there are parts which are nice.
quite touching though.
-When friends helped each other.when they got bullied and saved each other.when they stood by your side.when they give you their advice.when they touched you with their actions.sometimes when you realize it's not too late but sometimes it's gone.
-When you have to make your own desicions.to leave your friends and get your goal.or to become closer friends and forget your goal.
-And a phrase in the show is quite nice though.it says 'sometimes what you're chasing for, its not what you really want' and i thought it an be true.sometimes the things tha passes by along the way might be more precious.they goal might just be there.for you to treasure and love but the things you've been through to get the goal, that makes you the person you are.who you truly are right now.

After that was around 6.started on the blogskinn thing and had a hard time.until it was 7 me and my family went tmall to eat.we ate at some taiwan food shop.it's at B1 of century square.
Food and drinks were nice.but the Drinks were a little too EXPENSIVE.
After eatin went to cut hair at the 10 mins 10 dollars shop.hha.i look retarded.
Shopped around and bought a tee shop O.P.
Reached home andd watched 'chao ji xing guang da dao 4'
was okay.but seriously its deproving.-.-. (from 1 to 2 to 3 to 4)
Bathed and started looking for my tie cause tomorrow is monday!got assembly so need bring tie.And when i ask my lazy maid to find for me.she gave me an sleepy face look.i got so pissed off.but after blogging,i unknowingly forgot that i'm at a 'searching in progress' mode so i'm going to finish up with the links by today or tomorrow so tag me if you wan me to link you and tags will be replied usually at the tagboard unless there is alot alot.and continue to search for the missing TIE.muahahahah.

okay see you and bye=D
loves..

passerby

2008-10-19T02:32:00.000+08:00

hi.i'm passerby.

i've been thinking that there are so many people passing by me all the while.
some stays while some don't .
some are hypocrites some are just people who cares.
have anyone paid attention to people who has passed by you?
maybe some have..
did you ever smiled to someone you not know?
haha..thats just brief introduction and a way to start my blog.
blogskin will be done up asap.

i've several blogs..some lasted for quite a while.
hope this one lasts.

let's start
i hope i won't make it too boring or emo.lol.

i've a friend.i can say he's a close friend of mine.but we've quarreled.
he's not bothering me actually after we quarrel.
this thing came into my mind when more and more friends are getting involved.
i hope these friends sees the inner side of him.
i'm not trying to bad-mouth people here and it's just that i need to get things out of my head.
i looked tru his blog and found out that friends are ccalling him out instead of me.
and he also mentioned that he has been teaching his friends in chemistry and both of them passed.while the people i thaught in chem did'nt managed to pass.no that is the person's fault is just that when he says this,do i need to reflect on myself? so now i think.. is it me or him..
seriously.i've reflected.i just can't seem to understand what is going on.
new friends are going to him and people natrually follow those who hav more friends.am i right?
close friends leave me and go to him.i wonder how longis this going to last..

another thing.i've been liking this girl and i found out that she likes a person who i think is the closest friend of mine.haha..i'm trying to let go.seriously.

okay shall post my daily post.
i'm a dancer.so every saturda i wil have class at the early afternoon and late morning.1 -2
so as usual i went for the dance class today and i will have singing lesson after that. but as the studio was moving i had to stop class for 2/3 weeks so i went to made a dance pants and went back to dance studio.headed to bugis and had soup at 'THS SPOON'S SOUP' or 'THE SOUP'S SPOON'
its at B1 of bugis.the tomato soup in the bread's bowl is superb.haha.
taste wonderful.as we still had time for practice night(a place where the studio is open and we could go there and dance)we checked out the movies.the movies was limited.ended up going back to studio and slacked + slept + read.
before that went buy bread papa?
the place where sells cream puff and stuffs.yea..was heavenly.
back to stdio and ard 6 + went dinner with friends.(joey,zhipin,songwei,chole,naome,auntycassandra,deon,sisterranie and chenyin)
was quite boredd.went back to studio and yea.danced..
trained home with those dancing friends and siblings.

end of day.
no pictures taken.and so if there is picture+time to upload then you'll see me =D
anyway.going to make a blogskin so have fun and stay tuned to the passerby