Sunday, January 10, 2010
heyy.hii. im totally blogging like after so long. .
im blogging now because im pissed off. im pissed off like ya.tottally. whats with long lasting friendship? whats with BFFs. maybe im just a person who doesn't fit to have good friends? ya.? there are too many people who come and go , in and out of my life and im sick of that . hey like seriously, i thought that friendship is a everlasting thing. take for example, because of this person i gave up something i like and in the end , im like getting no appreciation. everytime something ends,it somehow marks the ending of the friendship i thought i had build upalong the way . its like when the show ends, it just leaves nothing but memories and a few years later,nothing stays.
sick and tired of life like this. just reflect, have you ever participated in a group activity and you guys spend alot alot of time together, after the whole thing ends, the distant between everyone increase. the happiness and laughter decrease. are you the one that feels lost like something and someone is missing , or you move on and go find another commitment, go close to another group and forget all the times you once had,but still live on happily ?
maybe im just sensitive but i guess im someone who is indeed very emotional and i need to feel people aroound to show that i am loved. i guess im just someone who relies too much on the hurtful memories. i just cant move on to another. i just cant love anyone else.i just cant get those times out of the mind ,just cant forget all the happy momentss. happpy moments,laughters and tears,i thought all that ive held down for you will have everlasting friendship in exchange, i guess i was just stupid and naive. haha. just laugh at me cause i made the wrong choice more than once and im stupid enough to keep falling into these traps and stupid memories.
if anybody out there is willing to save my soul, im happy and thankful that youre here with me.
cause when i know youre there, im happy.
with loves . eugene.
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