Tuesday, June 30, 2009
hello. i am o depressed now. i got no mood to do anything. and i mean everything. its like late at nigght and i haven't pack my bag. idk what homeworks i have and i seriously just stone there from 5+ till now i decided to blog. ive been plurking and now i just listen to music and sit down. lie on the bed. sit up and stone. there is no aim or goal in my life~ the motivational workshop plus ktv session plus chiong homework post is still under construction. and bytheway, art is sian and boring. okay they are the same meaning. and let me tell you this. i look okay on the outside but i got other thoughts in my mind. i seem to be close to this person but the fact is we're not. cause idk why. and everytime i close my eyes, i used to think of nothing and sleep but recently dreams are becoming nightmares. i dreamed of being eaten, being taken advantage of, being left alone. not that i've never been left alone but that feeling is repeating itself in the brain. it seems that i have to get use to that feling. and idk why whenever i thought i could turn to you forever, it changed. which means you will not be there anymore. if life's like that and that we have to accept people going in and ou tof our lives, i tell you i rather not live.
school is as usual sitting with joeyi = fun? haha. idk mix of all actually.
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