ya. i agree. i may like you and it really hurts when i knew you were together. but now, i feel lost. for idk what reason. i just dun wish that this happened. i know i shouldn't be blogging cause i need to study but now im not thinking of her. im worried for him. just like any other friend. he is one dear friend. i guess things just changes, its to much for me or us to take it. im starting to build a wall around me, perhaps to hide from the real world. i guess thats the way for me to be happy. i hope no one else is doing that. but i want to tell him something. dun be too sad, be as cool as last time. like then like , dun like then dun like. dun be too bothered. i dun really know what happened to them . i guesed they may just be quarreling. i hope nothing happens and things will go back to the same and everyone will be happy again i guess both he and she wun feel good now. i just want them to cheer up. for me at least smile okay. anyone who wants to tell me anything ,feel free to tell me. i ust want everyone to smile and not be emo. i will have to go do mt now. but before i go i still want to say cheer up. BE A SMILEY person!! ^^
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
10:15 PM
helllo people. its going to be the 50th post soon! haha. okay been watching boys over/before flower for the past few days since te last few days of exams. perhaps its because of that i neglected you. anyway the views aren't many. okay results are okay . but everybody say i deprove. thats why idon't like being top. cause whenyou drop, people tend to say alot. but seriosuly can say all you want cause i dun f***ing care . haha. and at the last few episode of the show, they hav been asking this question.what will you choose between friendship and love. haha. okay seriosuly what will you choose?i chose friendship. im lame but ya. the mian character chose 2 when he was asked the question. he got both of them. the other only got friendship. okay i understand how he feels like seriously. perhaps we do not have enough greed. this was also quoted from the how but ya i do not have enough greed to actually choose both. jiayou.. life just hasnt been too good ffor the past few days. o levels mother toungue is like just 2 days later and my basics are still not strong. i think i'll have to work hard + concentrate + dun be distracted. + not daydreaming + studying ithinki have a crush . just another one. haha. let's hope things will turn out great. benji's survey will be done after o level mt. or perhaps when it the third week of june holidays!!TAGGGS!
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
12:13 AM
I TOTALLY HATE BEING IGNORED. that feeling is hurtful and irritating. though, man people are doing it to me. People think i'mcrazy and ignorant, childish and immature but please accept me for who i am. today was real tired. had mt extra lesson and did a test. i ws talking to myself and she said i was disturbing to jionglin. so i asked jionglin ' did i disturb you?' and he say no . i told teacher that and she freakingly asked me to go out and do my test. i got no mood at all . like shit. i finished and i slept. but i was so crazy that i drew and wrote words of how much i love her. okay i admit im crazy. my mood was foul. shit ass. im crazy . m irritated..I SO FEEL LIKE GOING ON AN OVERSEAS TRIP. ALONE OR WITH ONE OR 2 FRIEND. anyone wants to go with me? i seriously want a company . we'll start planning and saving . but i seriously need one or 2 friend. eugenepang_25@hotmail.com . talk to me! im so so so serious right now. MAKE IT HAPPEN FOR ME ALRIGHT?
thanks people.HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIRDAUS.
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
7:23 PM
helllo. we got back our mid years and i failed englisih. im sad just now and i was shievering while checking the papers for all the subjects.im really dissapointed in mself. like come on. eugenepang ming xi. HE totally sucks. he deprove in almost all the subjects. puhhhlease wake up now before its too late. anyway, i ve been watching boys before/over flower for the past few days so there were no updates. however it was just exams and exams. i guess i'll just have to be happy. haha. im a happy person so do look for me if you are troubled i can tell you jokes that are suppose to make you have a =D face . however, everyone ended up like -.- . haha anyway, i still hope you will talk to me if you need to. my parents are going overseas tmr all the way till tuesday .. how can theybe so bad and leave me behind right? hhaha. i love her. like seriously i never had once let her out of my mind. i know its time to give up.. ive been tellin g myself since that day i heard the news. anyway im still happy. belive me. haha. i just hate it when you mademe laughed and smiled and the next moment you ignore and that makes me sad.. im like what..? LOL. im crapping so ignore. ^^
TAGSS!! loves.
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
1:06 AM
请告诉她，我不爱她。我好想为你唱一首歌。 今天换了一个新的发行，变得好幼稚。看着镜子里的自己，好笑了。再看来看，我哭了。我变得非常情绪化，我语无伦次，胡言乱语。你们向全世界宣布你们的幸福，我真的知道我和她的未来，是没有希望的。但没有人能够夺走我对她的爱。爱真的很奇怪，在第一眼，第一瞬间，我的心早在一年前失去了。我莫名其妙，爱上了一个跟我不同世界的人。也许我真的不够完美，和她心中的一百分差得很远吧？爱情里，努力是没结果，是无法控制的。 有人说，我并不比他好，自己也承认，他真的是一个很好的男生，我只是突然很想她，想问她最近好吗？给她情人无法给的东西。只有这样，我才会更快乐吧。。My speed of doing work is getting slow! i think im too old. im eating slowly and thinking slowly. i cannot finish my papers. BOTH papers actually. and for the past few papers, ive not been doing well nor concentrating..anyway, i love spending time with JOEYI,XIYAN,BEL,BENJAMIN,NICOLSAN,YIKZHEN and RONGGUANG! they'r the best . had fun 'shopping' with them at tmart. after that went with CINDY,CHEWYU and ALICIA. they are also the best! they're friends i simply cant live without. we did lots and lots of lame stuffs at cindy's house. they cheer me up.. i slept then went to cut hair. i swear im ugly now but , irioni-cally, i think im still handsome. haha. i know im crazyy. but we went to eat first. haha. walk cindy home and bus-ed home!
GET well soon rongguang ^^
I LOVE PEOPLE WHO VIEW MY BLOG..! YOU'RE LOVEDD!!
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
9:40 PM
我会放弃。让你在生活的各个领域里得到你自己最想要的，也同样是我得不到的。其实，这些都已成了定局，我根本没有权力在这里说什么，因为，你本来就已经比我好。我慢慢的事去生活里所有的方向与目标，从我得到消息的那一天，我的世界从此不同。我没有想过会是你，是你，让我觉得生命毫无意义，但却不能怪你，不能让自己的感觉流露出来，装起了武装，然后继续微笑，期盼着某某某来到我面前安慰我，问我‘我好不好’让我继续努力，但也迟迟不来。。心里一直无法平静，心里都是牵挂，都是他和她的画面。我无法专心，无法过自己的生活，无法在跟谁说我是真正的快乐。 我已经彻彻底底的放弃自己的人生了
Today had social studies paper. i can't finish and is going to fail. studied with a few classmates at the basketballcourt and went for chem. nothing which i studied came out and was freaking hard. 我真的慢慢在荒废一切。went to kopitiam and ate with yz,rg,benji,joeyi,xy.bel,jm,nicolsan.then after that we all go voiddeck talk and play,then got one anuty come cold us then we continue to play and talk . then went home . watched pokemon and tv. slept. and i got freaking eyebags. im so gonna die. and after that went to sleep.woke up and blog. im gonna study history and revise a little on maths. as much as possible, im just going to do art every 3 am. i hope i can tahan if not i wun be able to domy art! jiayou everyoe.
TAGGGG! ^^ thanks ..
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
7:21 PM
很想说有你是幸福的，但我却从没拥有过。只是想说，拥有她的人，一定要珍惜。我知道我们不可能，也发现，现在见面只会让我们更尴尬，但莫名其妙的我从没放弃。从一年前到现在，我只学会了一样东西 ‘爱情里，努力是不会有回报的。真的~~ anyway today had early dissimal. 1025. went to eat. then go art room. played with bel xiyan rg yz and nicolsan. had lotsa fun there. then went to assemble at 3e4 classroom. saw the performance. was like any other ones. ^^ had fun. not very was oring too but ya. at least still can. then went to cindy ouse and eat steamboat. waited for another 3 others . ate and slacked around . waited for bus and ya. was having a good time. came home and chatted with SOMEONE, on msn . been chatting with him for a few days. WEBCAM . haha. funn
我发现，我需要的是你的关怀。但你们的出现，往往会让我措手不及，不知所措！
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
11:20 PM
im NOT happy. very.SCHOOL. everyday , school is the same!.
我现在发现，成长是痛苦的。不喜欢现在的生活，面带假的微笑，不停的用高笑来掩饰心情。是好是坏的已经在微笑和搞笑中，消失得无影无踪。
很多时候，我发现 他 真的比我幸福。 他 有温暖的家，我没有。他 有世界上最完整无暇的女朋友，我没有。 他 有世界上最爱他，最崇拜他，最诚恳的朋友， 可能我有。 他聪明，至少比我聪明。我已经没有地方或任何人给我诉说了。我只想睡觉，不要起来，就慢慢老去，慢慢死掉。 went home after school and slept. was too too too tired. went to band. eat with my fther and sistr at the japanese restraunt in T1 then walk around. saw jovin. went home. im going to do work! after i bathe . TAGG~ and i love people who viit m blog!
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
10:09 PM
当故事结束之后，心也习惯一个人生活。。
有时，我知道我没有比你好。我开始知道为什么自己欧那么多白头发了。我无法忘记。其实很多时候也是因为压力吧。我用尽所有力量来读书，现在只发现，越来越迷失方向。
我怀念过去单纯美好的小幸福。真的~
在这个世界里，已经没有什么事情能够让我再一次露出单纯，纯真的微笑。Thanks for reading my blog. from now on, dun nid care about the CHinese wordinGS. er. ya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CINDY &&& CLIFTONyup. present was just ballons. i know its lame but, ya . live with it. nothing interesting happened in school. 也许是当我一个人的时候，好像事情都变得不快乐，不精彩。。IGONREE!. haha.. okay and after that went to eat with RG,NIColsan,YZ. saw JOEYILEEE!! WEILEEEE. liu yue and wendy!!
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
8:11 PM
笑的在大声，心不是热的，全都是假的，只有眼泪是真的。。
ｉ ｋｎｏｗ ｏｕ＇ｒｅ ｒｅａｄｉｎｇ ｔｈｉｓ． ｂｕｔ ｉ ｎｅｅｄ ｔｏ ｓａｙ ｔｈａｔ ｙａ． 我还没有真正的忘记她。看着镜子里自己的影子，我发现微笑是唯一解决现在这种情形的方法。ｔａｇ！！
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
10:56 PM
today school was okay. whenever i fake a smile, nothing seem to happen. perhaps this is reality. 我只是想听到有人问我，我好不好。 只是想听到放下武装吧。I'll be posting pictures. once i find the camera's cable! REMIND ME.. you'll see me! haha.TAG me if you're here, inform me if you've seen this blog one way or another. if you want can xiao xiao sheng tell me. haha. i'm lame and tired. i'll blog more later.
NIGHTS (though its only 4.15 !!!)
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
4:15 PM
i fake-d a smile so they won't see. i guess this will go on. since no one really cares. but ya.
this is not emo. i just want to tell somebody that, not all smiles are true. .. you can always go find people you like and no need consider about me and im okay alone. without you, you or you. but is this true?
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
9:08 PM
hello. its been so so so long since i posted. okayy. i agree . laziness overcmes me. exams have started and i thinkit wasn't a good start..but i think i will try harder..OMG! im so not in the mood to study. things just get worse and worse. People are starting to face friendship problem. relationship problem and studies, time management and such. i guess o level year is indeed very stessful . too much for us to take it. the laughters seems to dissapear. Awkward silence seems to increase. When i sang in the bathroom today, i looked into the mirror and felt so NOT myself. verything seemed to have change. the feel of my voice dissapear. i think that's the only way i let my feelings out? i stone-ed halfway throught the song. i can't find the right thing to do now.. whenever there's people around, i tend to hide my feelings. i think some other pople are doing that too. we'll smile and pretend nothing has happened. i've always thought i could trust you and you'll always talk to me.cheer me up. mayb i think too much..haha. i guess you have your problems too. but you just wun let me what's wrong and i dun think is good cause ishare with youall minor things and you are not sharing with me the things you find it sad or. . ya. but atleast you can talk to me and tell me something ... not just kkeep quiet like you know. you dun trust me and things. ><>
在世界上，我明白了只要会包装的很勇敢，外面看起来是快乐，无忧无虑的，所有人就会认为里面也是一样的。 今天，有人告诉我‘你很快乐的hor?没有烦恼，很好leiis.’我傻眼了。似乎好像没有人看到里面，里面的痛，不愉快，不开心，都在一个微笑被忽略。被搞笑掩饰了。
所以我超喜欢罗志祥的搞笑。
那一条牙膏 在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨
蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好
我在搞笑 藉着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麽熬
这麽多年 早就习惯 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道 你好不好
我们的小狗 食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
牠习惯睡觉的床尾 少了一双脚
所以牠常常看着门口睡不着
我在搞笑 藉着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉 我受不了
我在搞笑 却在醉後 眼泪拼命飙
你的离开 失去多少 我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳 对谁炫耀
还在搞笑 是否拥有 麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌 却避不开 催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到 你好不好
i've just have to be okay alone..hopeless.dreamless.dissapointless
EUGENE walked through the seasons at
11:23 PM
EUGENEEEEE ♥s and Wants.Y
