: EUGENE :

hello. im a monster. haha. im just woke up like WTH!! and im gonna study and read! gosh. i look up to amanda cause she reads alot. ahah. got tons of cluster paper for me to do. im gonna change my blog to private the next tiime free. cause im so freaking busy now! haha. what ever. morning today was okay. english did reflection. mdm noreha praised me! woah! first time la. continued reflection and sit beside asri. haha. we like never talk . then Mt it just rread and do poa slack and talk with rg shaun and today , jiaman never ask me to stop doing other things. haha. jiaman alwas ask us to concentrate in MT. haha. socialstudies was fine. did SBQ.miswani was kind of angry with our class. next was PE i simply slack around . do nothing. walk walk. play badminton wth bel and xiyan and natalie awhile. then watch the malay boys play the kick kick thing then go change with rg and go libary read. thenlibrarian scold me for putting legs on the chair. then ignored her. then go back to class want to put my book but the FAT n IRRITATING head refect stop me. i haven't get my tie and evrything but he just don't let.. someother things i wil write only when its private . okay things are not the same. its the change that i have to accept. poa was normal. go tru then went assembly. nasuha no badge so i lent her mine. stand outside write name give the prefect there and nothign else happen. went to class saw what each teacher gave comment on me. then learn about balance person and role model = lurdesamy and yikzhen. haha. then went hme sleep then blog. alot of things to do. so i got to be going.

MAlaysia trip will be posted oce the photos are up. there is like more than a thousand of pictures! haha. and thanks for letting me know that im okay alone. i walked home alone, i recess-ed alone and PE-ed alone. and that's you that let me know that i can actually do that. im more indeendant and iguess its just another passerby who stayed a little longer.

EUGENE walked through the seasons at 7:57 PM

这一次我决定，真的决定放手。这几个星期，我就会当作我没有活过。看来只有这样，才回过的比较快乐。

i know im lame. haha anywa school has been fine. alot of homeworks coming in. tests and exams are round the corner. but more importantly, i've seen who my friends are. defnetly not the person i always thought is is. haha. i know very 语无伦次。。(no sense) but ya..haha. however even if the time oculd go back, i would still choose to like you. experience ma. haha.lol -.-

and i think my laptop likes SHE alot!. i shuffled my 4/5 00 plus music, containing alot of singers, but surprisingly, i hear SHE's song the most. i think every 3/4 songs got 1 is SHE . so i guess the laptop prefers SHE!haha. very ilogical.

and i realsie something, everytime i smile to people(manners and friendl-iness) they will think i sot sot.. haha. c'mon smile is a act that will actually brightens up the day of people. however, the society has become fast and selfish. like what i learnt in school today, about social graciousness, i belive we singaporeans must do our part and change our thoughts about friendly, smiles. but now, i belive i will not smile to strangers or friends that i don't know? haha. sounds weird but ya. it is really true. so，也许我不会再跟陌生人微笑，不再和朋友或爱的人傻笑，从此也不再疯狂的大笑。这个世界真的变了。街上的人不再有善良的微笑，大家都会带着冷淡，无情的脸上班，上学，人也不会单纯不在大方。 will the new generation and mordern singapore become like that? ahah. okay sounds very weird to say myslef. lols. anyway ya.

lastly i hope that my smile will continuee. 我会尝试继续微笑，直到有一天，我才会彻底的崩溃。
if there will be one point where love is still prsent, i will love agin but i guess not now.

tag!!

with loves,
eugene pang ming xi
(siganture) haha

EUGENE walked through the seasons at 12:21 AM

hello. i am already going to forget you. slowly bit by bit, i am getting more happy. or am i just puting a smile on my face as a protectitive thing. i can't seem to find the smile where i used to have. its just like a smile dissapoearing into thin air. like i said, i will be as happy as i used to be, i'll try.you'll see.

third day of not talking.

EUGENE walked through the seasons at 10:29 PM