.Sunday, January 31, 2010 ' 12:40 AM Y
maybe when you're gone
and i thought we could be something . .
and i thought it will be forever . .
and i thought things had changed for the better . .
it stayed the same .
couldnt you see the things i do ?
have you not noticed ?
sometimes i feel like disappearing .
i am sad . . because i always treated you as my good friend but you never once did .
am sad . . because you never once share your troubles
am sad . . because you never allowed me to help
but now ive decided not to think .
i live for myself.
and EUGENE PANG MING XI . . will always remember that he's a prince.
a HAPPY one .
a HANDSOME one .
a SMART one .
and all he needs to do is smile and be cool .
so he dosent have to care what others have to say
dosent have to worry bout anything or anyone
dosent have to be what others ask him to be
COOL-ness .
its just a post bout what crossed my mind the whole day . .
.Monday, January 18, 2010 ' 11:35 PM Y
maybe when you're gone
BOO!!its me. .
who else?
i feel super depressed now. . thats all .
oh ya. . i love you . .
.Wednesday, January 13, 2010 ' 3:35 PM Y
maybe when you're gone
boo!! i uploaded a picture of me cause im boredd. ! enjoyy!
. ' 3:26 AM Y
maybe when you're gone
hiii . . i'm all alone on the crossroad . .
JOEY and SLUT are at my house !!
*i feel excited and tired.i'm sian after volkaa!*
i love you .
***friendships are indeed fragile ***
.Sunday, January 10, 2010 ' 2:08 AM Y
maybe when you're gone
heyy.hii. im totally blogging like after so long. .
im blogging now because im pissed off. im pissed off like ya.tottally. whats with long lasting friendship? whats with BFFs. maybe im just a person who doesn't fit to have good friends? ya.? there are too many people who come and go , in and out of my life and im sick of that . hey like seriously, i thought that friendship is a everlasting thing. take for example, because of this person i gave up something i like and in the end , im like getting no appreciation. everytime something ends,it somehow marks the ending of the friendship i thought i had build upalong the way . its like when the show ends, it just leaves nothing but memories and a few years later,nothing stays.
sick and tired of life like this. just reflect, have you ever participated in a group activity and you guys spend alot alot of time together, after the whole thing ends, the distant between everyone increase. the happiness and laughter decrease. are you the one that feels lost like something and someone is missing , or you move on and go find another commitment, go close to another group and forget all the times you once had,but still live on happily ?
maybe im just sensitive but i guess im someone who is indeed very emotional and i need to feel people aroound to show that i am loved. i guess im just someone who relies too much on the hurtful memories. i just cant move on to another. i just cant love anyone else.i just cant get those times out of the mind ,just cant forget all the happy momentss. happpy moments,laughters and tears,i thought all that ive held down for you will have everlasting friendship in exchange, i guess i was just stupid and naive. haha. just laugh at me cause i made the wrong choice more than once and im stupid enough to keep falling into these traps and stupid memories.
if anybody out there is willing to save my soul, im happy and thankful that youre here with me.
cause when i know youre there, im happy.
with loves . eugene.
.Sunday, September 6, 2009 ' 6:41 PM Y
maybe when you're gone
trust me this song is nice.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X7d7Ul6PmI
.Saturday, September 5, 2009 ' 10:56 PM Y
maybe when you're gone
i'm blogging belive it or not.!
this is a lengthy post . read and tag if you care (: however i still appreciate you for coming.
its been so long.those long ago post are still under constructions.the JUNE holidays motivational talk workshop is still undone.i'm giving up on that.
Its sucha happening week.
please tell me you love me.
i've been listening to english songs.people are getting complicated.cliques are starting to change.close friends used to be so happy together.everything changes la.the person i trust hurt me again.can this world be like the past?if i were to say i love you will you belive me?anyway alot of things had changed.i made new BFFs.love them lots.studying siao.dance craze.hectic life.new girlfriend.its been so long since im in love.090809 will be the date we are together.it was a very fast thing and everything wasn't prepared.there was no formal propose.no gift.no anything.sorry uhh.perhaps i need time.actually im kind of a fake person now.i wear contacts.i style my hair.i wear nice clothes.its been so long since i wear simple singlets and shorts out.its like my spectacle haven't seen the sun for so long but i have to present myself well,don't i?Os are coming and im totally not prepared.i guess i will fail prelims.happ thing is i A1 for MT.one subject down and 2 bonus points for cca.eating choclate cake now.all alone in my room.i offed the light and i seem to feel like dyying anytime.i sat on the railing of the studio today.EMO-ness rose up in me.i wonder how strong is friendship.they say friendship are more easier to handle then relationship but i guess both dosen't work well for me.when i sit alone i think of you.are youokay?im starting to read.m eng is lousy.and i think i cant blend in anwhere. I GUESS I DUN FIT IN ANYWHERE. im like alone and most of the time i dun find myself imprtant anywhere.i cant do well in studies , i cant dance as well,im not as good looking,i cant handle relationship,i can't fit in in cliques and friendships just dosent seem to last for me,i trust the wrong person,im being ignored by people,im forgotten . haha. emo aren't i? but all the love dosent seem to appear. all i wish is to live in mmy dreams.die now? haha. opss .7th month. haha. like i sAY,smiles are for the world and tears should come in right now.if one day i break down i guess its just because i cant hold on to tears much longer.
I'll stop . thanks for tagging people.2309 is coming -presentssss! haha.jkjk
boo!! i uploaded a picture of me cause im boredd. ! enjoyy!